comet.

one of these days we're gunna find our comet. that one person who for one moment in time made our life sincere and full of clarity. as if we no longer need the stars to chase and like the void we tried everything in our power to fill was finally gone. when we meet this person we take it for granted. we dont understand why this new kind of wonderful is in our sight but we take it. for one moment we have something thats stranger then the hearts we grasp. and from that moment on we spend our lives tugging and scratching at this person to stay. we all move on. and we all have a hardships. long walks to the library and laughing till it hurts cant fill what we used to have. when we look at eachother its as if the spark of finding my comet has vanished. somedays i stare at the sky. i wonder if it means anything to be up there. like if i was a cloud, if i could be invincible from the pain that strikes my heart everyday. the green monster is in my eyes when you talk to other girls because even though you arent mine, your still my comet. also in the sky is the future. i'm afraid of tomorrow and i'm the first to admit it. knowing that i am coming to my finish line makes me quiver and confused. if for that one moment maybe i would walk into that classroom. back to the the days when it was clear and the world had no rough parts. like the biggest worry was our friends and that the world was made of cotton candy. i'd step back into that same spot in the same classroom. and i'd speak the same words. because that was the day and moment i found my comet. we all have a comet. may it be a person or thing or place. we'll leave it one day. our hearts will break and the tears that have been hidden will fall like razor blades on the chin. i wont have any words. not even a single smile could fill the strange moment that i will share with him. life wont stop for me or him for one moment. it wont feel clear and certain like it did when i met you. if for those first years of my life i was without something that made sense. when my feet failed and i seemed so lost, his eyes might bring me back. back to the sky. when it rains it falls down like memories. and for every smile or tear or fight or laugh or regret or pain felt would fall from that sky. this shows the sky betrays us. it makes us sad and like the comet we have searched for might be gone. on that day i'll think of the classroom where we met. and i'll think of how all i want to do is hold on because today is not tomorrow and tomorrow will be the start of the rest of my life without you. we'll probably be wearing a cap and gown and i will have to think for a few hours of how maybe i wont see you tomorrow. so i'll be strong. thats all i've ever had to do. but strength comes in the form of power. and my power might not be by my side in that moment. the moment where i have to say goodbye and good luck. the day that i wont see your face on my first day of school or the day where i leave behind my rock and best friend. the sky will assure me that even if you never love me back, i'm still there. and for that moment we're still best friends and love eachother with a love that not even a fight could break. because he is my comet. and being my comet i will find him again. may it be on a street when he's in his spiffy suit and marching down will his dreams ahead. and i'll most likely be the same person i am when i met him, unclear and confused. on that day maybe five hundred years from now as i sit in a chair living back the days i met my comet, you'll come back to me. he always will. because comets come and go. but the ones that mean the most come back for us.