i'm on my way.

have you ever thought about who you have become?

i mean, think about it.

who were you exactly one year ago.

i know i was someone completely different.

what would you say to yourself one year ago?

because i know what i would say, oh i do.

i'd tell myself to enjoy the one life i have and to capture every moment with every sense. i think i kind of lived in a way where i had a big problem. and that problem was that i didnt know how to exactly except who i was. i mean, i knew i was this different person from everyone else. but i didnt know how to convey that. i sitll have problems with being different and sharing my deepest secrets. we're all open books though.

i'd also tell myself to let loose sometimes. im very hesitent to certain things. i have missed too many opportunites to live my life to the fullest. i have changed that though. i do the things that might seem a little out of the normal. im not afraid to have a different opinion then everyone else in the world. and im certainly going to continue to changing myself to a person that can be ok with trying new things. my problem is i hate new. i mean i'll think somethings horrible and never give it a chance. but when i finally do it, its simple. it's easy. it's what i love.

i would tell myself to give out more chances. i always give people chances. it doesn't matter if i don't like them. but when they hurt me, that's what they lose their chance. we all deserve second chances but i would never give a third. i do what i would want done to me. and if hurt someone i'd want my second chance to change how that person feels about me. i don't want to die with someone hating me. i always always think about how i would want to be when i die. and i live my life trying to make myself what i find ideal. i believe people can change. the only problem is do they want to change?

i dont know where that came from.

i just felt like writing.

i've fallen in love with that green gentleman yet again.