scratching its way out.

the year scares me.
it makes me want to go hide.
i wish this didn't happen to me.
why are my eyes so heavy?
why can't i shut them away from the world?
i wish it was back to normal.
i wish this feeling of happiness was normal.
i don't want to disapoint you.
i want you to learn from what has made me fall.

all we want is a shoulder and an ear.
i've got both.
so fall into me.
forget whatever is making the tears.
let's just fall away from this.
i wish that we didn't lose people.
especially the ones that made everything ok.
should i agree with them.
i want to be a better person.
the evils of you over take my brain.
i want to be a better person.

i don't want to swear.
i want to be the kid that says shucks.
i want to be the kid that i used to be in the summer.
the one who didn't care what you thought.
being able to put a back to you is being stronge.
because my whole life i've had a back against it all.
my walls are set higher then my eyes.
i wish this could be so easy.

maybe i should change it back.
think more about my grades; my future.
think more about music and find some hidden talents.
think about what i say.
wonder if i can change this for you.
i want to make this better for everyone.
i truely honestly do.

why do i deny?

how are we afraid of our fears
when their the single thing that
sets us apart from the rest?