i hope wish and dream for you to just realize what i've done for you.

i break down. a lot.
and it's funny how you do too.
i have so many flaws but when you meet me
when you take that first step
i'm a drop dead dream.
i make your heart putter
because i'm not interesting
i have a past that could sink your heart
it would sound perfect
but in my head it's a disaster
i've dreamt and i've seen
i know what it's like to feel pain
i can feel pain through songs
and i can feel pain in my laugh
it stings when i think of my reflection
i stare into that mirror
and i look for something to like
all i see smuged makeup
and smiled goodbyes in my eyes
their like blank abyses
you don't find a lot in them
but behind them oh my
it's where few tend to journey
it's like my head it's cobwebs
and once in a while
i clean them out
i make them pretty for people to see
they tried to figure out what was wrong
it just didn't work out
like a bad relationship
i miss the summers i lived for
i miss finding out who i am
and i miss being normal
i wish i didn't have to hide this
i wish it was normal
and i wish you knew who i was
i hope these words make it one day
i hope someone will love them
and i hope they will help one single person
i'm far from perfect and
recognizing that is far from amazing
i miss it
and i miss you
i miss your rants about nothing
i wish i could still tell you everything
i hope that this all works out
for you
for us.
let's forget the world and hop off
we'll make our own
where pain is illegal
and love is free.